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THE DAMAGE WE DO (2014)

20 for 20

i met him at the bottom. he was in a manic state and he had gotten deep into my brain. and i think he had forgotten he didn’t need ‘em all just ‘cause he bought ‘em. he’s gotta find a way to make it through his day without ‘em. someone better guide him or we’ll find him headed for the grave, out to make fools of all who tried to save him. and it is far too late. take 20 grams of pleasure per 20 years of pain. the porch swing wood is rotten where his momma used wait before she caught him. now the rust is on the chain. you know damn well she taught him. and she wouldn’t let him leave before she fought him, which makes it makes it hard to see, not even love can come between what’s in the bottle and the hand of a broken man. headed for the grave, out to make fools of all who tried to save him. and it is far too late. take 20 grams of pleasure per 20 years of pain. a death dose in his pocket. worn in a ring in faded jeans. last he was seen said drink it down before you knock it. and no one tried to stop it. now the only time i see his face is when his mamma opens up her locket. and on a brand new wooden swing she wonders what she could’ve done to keep her son from heading for the grave. out to make fools of all who tried to save him. and it is far too late. take 20 grams of pleasure per 20 years of pain

 

Should You Need Me

are you still running ‘round? are you still thinking ‘bout your past? you’ve been caught thinking dreams will last. i see your wondering eyes chasing your wandering mind through streets, past all the dreams you meant to keep. and i’m pretty sure that one of them was me. so if you need it, come and get it, ‘cause no one lives long enough to regret it. we never meant it when we said goodbye. and should you need me, baby i’ll be waiting by the road that was not meant for the taking. what good is saying now is not the time? you feel like slipping through ‘cause nothing’s real to you? you’re right. you count the days by lonely nights. and all that’s dealt to you, it hasn’t felt this heavy yet. the burden of regrets you don’t forget. in the weight of all that’s safe, is where you’ve always placed your life’s bets. so if you need it, come and get it, ‘cause no one lives long enough to regret it. we never meant it when we said goodbye. and should you need me, baby i’ll be waiting by the road that was not meant for the taking. what good is saying now is not the time? and i see you like that girl i knew back when. is the one who laughed, the one who loved somewhere within? you’ve been chasing dreams that never led you to an end. and where is enough when all you want is where you’ve been? so if you need it, come and get it, ‘cause no one lives long enough to regret it. we never meant it when we said goodbye. and should you need me, baby i’ll be waiting by the road that was not meant for the taking. what good is saying now is not the time? and should you need me, baby i’ll be waiting by the road that was not meant for the taking. i know you feel it. there’s no better time.

 

John Grey

how your blood ran cold and scarred all our fragile minds. like a note the truth unfolds as you turn your words into time. and there is no life too precious for your criminal mind. and now this jury of your peers is sending you away for years. we’re putting you away, john grey. and i wish your knife were as dull as your vacant stare. and i miss my life. the one i had before i saw you in that chair. but what a lucky man. you got to live out all your fantasies and earn a couple grand. tell us things we can’t unhear. now this courtroom full of tears is putting you away, john grey. and i didn’t want to serve my time, i didn’t care about your crime. i thought that it would work out and i thought that i could get out. i didn’t know at that time that i’d have to look in your eyes and say we’re putting you away. and i thought i knew that there was evil in this world and all that greed can make us do. but of all the things i keep from being with you for that week, the lifetime of images, the lifetime of restless sleep, the one i cannot shake is how the look upon your face never even changed, john grey. and i thought i knew that there was evil in this world and all that greed can make us do. but of all the things i keep from being with you for that week, the lifetime of images, the lifetime of restless sleep, there’s this one i cannot shake, it’s how the look upon your face… i said there’s one i cannot shake, it’s how the look upon your face never even changed,  john grey.

 

That’s What Led You to Me

i fell in love with you when all you really wanted was something new. you didn’t lead me on, you didn’t lead me on, did what you had to do. and now i find it hard to breathe, i find it hard to please you. you took the long way home when all you really wanted was some time alone. you told me not to call, told me not to call, said you won’t pick up the phone. and i’m not blaming you at all, i can feel it start to fall, i can feel it in my bones. but don’t you think that something real beats something new. when the green grass calls for you and you’re tempted by the life you feel you’re due, i know what your choice will be, ‘cause that’s what led you to me. and he says you come around, you tell him things that i don’t ever hear and now the ground, it starts to shake. the ground, it starts to shake, and the walls are coming down. and no one said we’d ever make something that would never break. but don’t you think that something real beats something new. when the green grass calls for you and you’re tempted by the life you feel you’re due, i know what your choice will be, ‘cause that’s what led you to me. and if only it were me, disguised as someone else, i could sweep you off your feet. ‘cause i’d know all the things to say, you just need a different face. something new is what you need, sort of like i used to be. but don’t you think that something real beats something new. when the green grass calls for you and you’re tempted by the life you feel you’re due, i know what your choice will be, ‘cause that’s what led you to me. but don’t you think that something real beats something new. when the green grass calls for you and you’re tempted by the life you feel you’re due, i know what your choice will be, ‘cause that’s what led you to me.

 

Secret

and she turned her head to say “that’s the storm cloud and the rain that i don’t see us getting through. and i have something that i need to tell you.” and she started to unload as their wheels rolled down the road. bobby reached to touch her hand. and he said “darling there is something that you need to understand. all i want is to see you smile. and all i want is you beside me as we travel these last miles. but if you want to hold your truth, baby, i won’t stop you. baby, i won’t stop you.” and they married years ago. settled down in san antone. and their two kids all but grown, bobby says his greatest fear is living life alone. and all he wants is to see her smile. and all he wants is her beside him as these days turn into miles. said “you can do all the wrong you care to do, ‘cause babe, it’s not about you. babe, it’s not about you.” he said “all i want is to see you smile. and even though it isn’t real, could you just wear it ‘till we die? i’ve given all i had from life there was to give. so you can keep your secret, ‘cause i don’t want to hear it. all i want is to see you smile. and even though it isn’t real, could you just wear it ‘till we die? i’ve given all i had from life there was to give. so you can keep your secret. the least that you can do is keep your secret.”

 

More Than My Number

i read your name on the door, can’t explain my excitement. two thousand miles just to find where you’ve been. doesn’t look like you’re in, bet you’re out with that lover. can’t just leave my number. you’ve been away for a year, now i’m here and i’m angry. i’m seeing red, but i’ll keep it at bay. never once heard you say you had more to discover. i won’t just leave my number. i won’t just leave my number. might just leave my pain, might just leave your lies, might just leave my heartache. but i’m taking my pride. i know that you’re inside, as i stare at your name. i won’t disrupt your slumber. i’m leaving more than my number. i read your name on the door, through the oak heard you breathing. took all i had not to let myself in. what had once been all miles is now reduced to just lumber. leaving more than my number, leaving more than my number. can it carry the weight? can i lay it all down right here in your doorway? leaving all of my pain, leaving all of your lies, leaving all of my heartache, taking my pride. hear you breathing inside. satisfied all my hunger. keep living your life. keep loving another, that’ll be just fine.

 

Help You

isn’t that the chance you took when you fell head over heels? and aren’t the words you spoke when you found out wounds don’t heal? so paint that pretty smile on your face, go out in the world, make your change. and come back to me when you’re through, and i’ll do my best to help you. isn’t that the chance you took on me, and i on you? far too young to clearly see the damage we do. a real goodbye shouldn’t take this long. we had it right, so why are we calling it wrong. when your shiny new day’s turning grey, won’t your beautiful friends start to fray? you don’t have to change for change’s sake. babe, i’m confused. and isn’t the bed we tried to make before it got used. when the memories fade with the the flood, and fear is all that runs through your blood. when you need someone to come home to, i’ll be the one to help you.

 

Winding Dreams

i might’ve asked her way and not recalled what she said when she offered her reply. now i just want to hold her tight and turn my mind off for a little while. i spent a long time wasting time, winding dreams just to unwind. what i chased so long turned grey. how it used to shine. and to think what i passed up when it was mine. i’d like to trade my failures in for time. she might’ve turned me down if we met after we did and i wasn’t just a kid. and, if i’d have known what i’d found, i’d have held it with both hands. spent a long time making plans, chasing dreams no man should have take his mind off the things that matter so much in the end. and i can hear her say like a friend, that these are the things you can’t do again. and i’ll leave the things that made me go. so long to those wild oates. so long to those wild oates. it’s been so, so long, but i’m coming home. i might’ve crossed through lines. but i meant just what i said when i offered my regrets. and i just want to be that guy who gave his girl what she deserved. and i think i realize that i love her more than the world. been a long time, baby i’m wishing i was home spending time. need to be with the one that gave until she gave ‘til it was gone. she was right, she was right and i was wrong. but she stayed and she stayed and she stayed. been a long time, baby i’m wishing i was home spending time. need to be with the one who gave until she gave ‘til it was gone. she was right, she was right and i was wrong. but she stayed and she stayed and she stayed. she stayed, she stayed and she stayed. she stayed and she stayed and she stayed. but now she’s gone.

 

When October Leaves

when there’s a calming wind in the air, I get the feeling that you’ve been here, and as the weight gets swept off with the breeze and autumn’s coming in through the trees. yellow leaves with pretty lines like finger prints on jealous minds. sometimes i like to wonder where we’d be if the wind blew stronger when we were free. and i’m learning there’s no longer a reason left to hope. but i wish that i was stronger and i wish that i could cope. don’t you still remember, it was halloween on that small town street. don’t ever let that thought escape your memory, even when october leaves. and as the soft light makes its way from the streetlight to your young face, and i wrapped my arms around your waist. is that still us? is that still us? when all the leaves had turned to dust, we wiped our names in just because. don’t you ever wonder where we’d be if the wind blew stronger. only if the wind blew stronger back when we were free. and i’m learning there’s no longer a reason left to hope. but i wish that i was stronger, and i wish that i could cope. don’t you still remember, we were seventeen on that small town street. don’t ever let that thought escape your memory. and i’m learning there’s no longer a reason left to hope. but i wish that i was stronger. girl, i wish that i could cope. don’t you still remember, it was halloween on that small town street. don’t ever let that thought escape your memory, even when october leaves.

 

Firsthand Advice

lord give me strength on this dreadful day. i did her wrong and she went away. just one more drink. and if you’ve got some truth, then fill me up ‘cause i’ve no pride left to lose. it wasn’t all that bad, at least not to me. wasn’t all she wanted, wasn’t all that she thought i’d be. and another man is giving her what i thought i could and learned i can’t. now i need one more chance, but lord knows i’ve had enough for one man. if she only stayed, and we only played what’s in our hand, maybe things would change. baby we might last. and i know that there is someone who would put us all to shame, doing things for you. and i wish i were him, doing what i wish i could still do. lord knows i would, now that i’ve lost you. so lord give me strength on this dreadful day. she finally said what i knew she’d say. and now i feel broken and ashamed, ‘cause i didn’t give half of what she gave. now i need someone who will love me half as much as she used to do. now i’m old and wise, and i’ve got a heart that wants to cry out all these tips and firsthand advice. right now i need someone who will love me half as much as she used to do. now i’m old and wise, and i’ve got a heart that wants to cry out all these tips and firsthand advice. i’ve got all these tips and firsthand advice.